Next Wednesday, I travel alone to Tokyo, Japan for 1.5 weeks. It’s a much needed trip as I have been wrecked by the death of my dad, the selfishness and lack of sympathy from my wife, and the new world that I find myself in. The purpose of this trip is to reset myself. I… Continue reading A few days before my adventure
Sometimes the loss of my father hasn’t sunk in yet with me. Its bern over a month since he passed. The last few days however, I think its starting to hit me with the realization that he is truly gone. A few days ago, I drove his suv around the block. Keep in mind, im… Continue reading A shadow of the original
It sucks that my father is a memory now. I wish I had more pictures of him. Of us together. I’m fortunate to have kept two of his voicemails, so I will never forget his voice. How I miss those days where I would sit in his living room talking to him about life or… Continue reading It sucks that my father is a memory now
These days I have a heavy heart and my mind is troubled. I am confused. Basically standing at a crossroads point in my life. I haven’t enjoyed life in a long time. I sense the wife is trying to be supportive and loving and sweet. Problem is in the back of my mind, I can’t… Continue reading Self-medicating
I’m at a crossroads in my life. 40 years old and I feel I have done nothing with my life. Do I continue to give my marriage a chance despite a lot of warning signs? Or do I gather the courage and say its over to the girl who saw something in me? This… Continue reading What to do?
Went to the DMV and spent nearly 3 hours stuck in their bureaucracy. Just to change my father’s car registration to my mother’s name. At least it’s done. At least there was one cute girl working one of the counters. I spent my day working from my mom’s place today because it has been 1… Continue reading DMV and bullshit
Today has been one month since my father passed away. Its still very surreal. Sometimes I still think he’s around. These days, I only find solace when I sleep or go to my mom’s place. Going to my mom’s place brings me back to simpler times. That somehow comforts my heart. The reality is nothing… Continue reading One month