Lately I feel as if I have no luck. Not necessarily all bad luck but no good luck and I’m just at a plateau. For instance, gambling. I have been on a huge losing streak. Namely roulette. Just lost about $700 in three days. My wife is very generous and even gave me 300 to… Continue reading Luck
My wife and I argued again today. The first time in two months. It started out minor but escalated to something serious. Of course she threatens divorce. Often she thinks Im giving her an attitude when im really not. And because she thinks that in her mind, she quickly gets an attitude and becomes confrontational.… Continue reading Discipline
Next Wednesday, I travel alone to Tokyo, Japan for 1.5 weeks. It’s a much needed trip as I have been wrecked by the death of my dad, the selfishness and lack of sympathy from my wife, and the new world that I find myself in. The purpose of this trip is to reset myself. I… Continue reading A few days before my adventure
Sometimes the loss of my father hasn’t sunk in yet with me. Its bern over a month since he passed. The last few days however, I think its starting to hit me with the realization that he is truly gone. A few days ago, I drove his suv around the block. Keep in mind, im… Continue reading A shadow of the original
It sucks that my father is a memory now. I wish I had more pictures of him. Of us together. I’m fortunate to have kept two of his voicemails, so I will never forget his voice. How I miss those days where I would sit in his living room talking to him about life or… Continue reading It sucks that my father is a memory now
These days I have a heavy heart and my mind is troubled. I am confused. Basically standing at a crossroads point in my life. I haven’t enjoyed life in a long time. I sense the wife is trying to be supportive and loving and sweet. Problem is in the back of my mind, I can’t… Continue reading Self-medicating
I’m at a crossroads in my life. 40 years old and I feel I have done nothing with my life. Do I continue to give my marriage a chance despite a lot of warning signs? Or do I gather the courage and say its over to the girl who saw something in me? This… Continue reading What to do?