“Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds” -Finger Eleven (One Thing) —————- I’m back after a two month layoff. So where have I been? What was I up to? I’ve been to Tokyo, Japan to reset my life a little bit. I… Continue reading Where I been…
Next Wednesday, I travel alone to Tokyo, Japan for 1.5 weeks. It’s a much needed trip as I have been wrecked by the death of my dad, the selfishness and lack of sympathy from my wife, and the new world that I find myself in. The purpose of this trip is to reset myself. I… Continue reading A few days before my adventure
Sometimes the loss of my father hasn’t sunk in yet with me. Its bern over a month since he passed. The last few days however, I think its starting to hit me with the realization that he is truly gone. A few days ago, I drove his suv around the block. Keep in mind, im… Continue reading A shadow of the original
It sucks that my father is a memory now. I wish I had more pictures of him. Of us together. I’m fortunate to have kept two of his voicemails, so I will never forget his voice. How I miss those days where I would sit in his living room talking to him about life or… Continue reading It sucks that my father is a memory now
Ever have this feeling where you feel like you have a knot in your chest (under your heart) that just drags your mood down? I’m feeling very down today. Maybe its the rain. Maybe its because I miss my dad. I think its really because of my failing marriage. The newest development is my wife… Continue reading Am I depressed?
So my wife and I had a huge fight last Friday. We made up Saturday agreeing that we should work on our communication skills and she also will try to control her short temper. My mind and heart are not in sync due to my marriage falling apart and the recent loss of my dad.… Continue reading Not even one week…
These days I have a heavy heart and my mind is troubled. I am confused. Basically standing at a crossroads point in my life. I haven’t enjoyed life in a long time. I sense the wife is trying to be supportive and loving and sweet. Problem is in the back of my mind, I can’t… Continue reading Self-medicating